Kabalintunaan ng Pag-ibig

May mga bagay minsan na inaasahan mo sa isang tao. Yung gusto mo'y sana sumagi sa isip niya. Yung pinapangarap mo na sana sabihin niya. May mga bagay tayo minsang hinihintay na maramdaman ng isang tao. Ngunit ang buhay ay hindi perpekto, kahit na ako, at hindi lahat ng pinapangarap ko ay makukuha ko.

Minsan, nahanap mo na yung taong mahal na mahal ka, pero hindi maiwasang maging masaya pa rin sa pagpapahalaga ng iba. Nakita mo na yung taong mahal mo, ngunit sa maling araw at pagkakataon. May pangyayari sa buhay natin na sadya lamang talagang madaya. At minsan pa, may taong darating sa buhay mo na aakala-in mong siya na nga ay para sa iyo, ngunit dahil sa mapaglarong tadhana ay malalaman mong ikaw ay mas liligaya pa pala sa piling ng iba.

Totoo ngang hindi natin hawak ang bukas. Pwedeng ngayon ay masaya ka, bukas hindi na. May mga bagay na hindi natin maiwasan na mangyayari at mangyayari pa rin. Pwedeng ngayon mahal ka niya, bukas napalitan ka na. Sinong makapagsasabi? Paano mo maipapaliwanag ang kabalintunaan ng pag-ibig?

Samakatuwid, tayo ay sumusulong na lamang sa agos ng buhay. Nakikisama sa takbo ng mga pangyayari at sumusunod sa sigaw ng damdamin. Minsan ay mahirap pakinggan ang tunay na laman ng puso at isipan, ngunit sa di kalaunan ay nahahanap mo rin ang sagot sa lahat ng katanungan. Maaring hindi lahat ng ito ay tama, o nararapat, pero madalas ay iyon ang tingin mong tunay na magbibigay ng kaligayahan sa buhay mo o sa taong mahal mo.

Love

Love, I'm tired. You are the biggest temptation, the biggest attraction, my guiltiest pleasure. I adored you more than anything. I took all things that hurt and swallowed the pain of my own pride because I simply wanted you so bad. Why do you have to punish me like this? Why can't I be with the one I love?

Love, I'm desperate. You seduce my thoughts into your words, you have lured me, hypnotized me. And yet I looked up to you like I had nothing else. Please stop this suffering and save me. How long will I be crying? How far do I go to keep trying?

Love, I'm losing grip. Every step I make forward is taking me two steps back. Where are you now? I need you to feel my heart in deep sadness. Hold me like you are for real. Touch me, hear me, see right through me. Why did I ever fall for you? Why do I have to keep breathing without you?

Love, take me away. You're the only thing that matters now. I give myself to you. If you take me I'll never leave. Don't watch me drown in my own tears, don't watch me fade, give me a reason to stay. Why do I keep hoping? Why do I keep feeling this way?

Love, I am hurting. The pain inside me grows deeper like a cut. You feel so good, you feel so right, but something must be wrong. How can you be so unfair to me? Let me go, set me free. Is it really what it's got to be?

Letter 71

I don’t think I’d ever tell you, but –

        …when we talk, you make me feel good.^^

Like a resting place from a long walk in a desert.

Or a party from a long day’s work.

You make me feel alive like I’ve never been. And most of all?

You make me feel important.^^

I like how you stare at me with those eyes –

        …they tell a lot.

And even if I cared less, the river kept flowing.

Simple, natural and beautiful;

And I like how you can boost my optimism..

Like you knew I needed it,

Like a perfect three-point shot.^^

Don’t treat me this way. Don’t lend me your hand.

Stop telling me I’m pretty. Stop talking.

Don’t take me to places you think I deserve.

Stop caring. Stop looking at me with your open arms.

Just stop what you’re doing and let it be..

The stake’s so high.

Water’s too deep.

When you come to me I feel needed, and

        …when you call on me I feel wanted.^^

You give me thoughts I never thought about.

You give me strength when I’m at fallout.

And you keep rising, now that’s surprising. But most of all?

You kept me a big part of your life.^^

Thanks for making me appreciate change…

Thanks for giving me a life’s lesson…

Thanks for making me see, that loving ain’t easy.

Now my heart beats to the right side of the ring –

        …it comes in free-flowing with fragrant bubbles of hope;

Like the tips of my toes anticipating the waves

on that dreamland we walked together.

Three more words and I’ll fall again,

Two more steps and I’m out the door.

Don’t tell me this, don’t say it at all.

Don’t give me this, I won’t take it anymore.

Say nothing –

…just let your silence float over my bewildered world.

Your presence lingers enough and I’m cool.^^

Your sweet soul –

…like a special sound in my ears,

Soothing from pain.

Staining.

*Make You Feel My Love

When the rain is blowing in your face,
And the whole world is on your case,
I could offer you a warm embrace
To make you feel my love.

When the evening shadows and the stars appear,
And there is no one there to dry your tears,
I could hold you for a million years
To make you feel my love.

I know you haven't made your mind up yet,
But I would never do you wrong.
I've known it from the moment that we met,
No doubt in my mind where you belong.

I'd go hungry, I'd go black and blue,
I'd go crawling down the avenue.
No, there's nothing that I wouldn't do
To make you feel my love.

The storms are raging on the rolling sea
And on the highway of regret.
Though winds of change are blowing wild and free,
You ain't seen nothing like me yet.

I could make you happy, make your dreams come true.
Nothing that I wouldn't do.
Go to the ends of the Earth for you,
To make you feel my love

*Chasing Pavements

I've made up my mind,
Don't need to think it over
If I'm wrong, I am right
Don't need to look no further,
This ain't lust
I know this is love
But, if I tell the world
I'll never say enough
'cause it was not said to you
And that's exactly what I need to do
If I end up with you

Should I give up,
Or should I just keep chasin' pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere
Or would it be a waste
Even if I knew my place
Should I leave it there
Should I give up,
Or should I just keep chasin' pavements
Even if it leads nowhere

I build myself up
And fly around in circles
Waitin' as my heart drops
And my back begins to tingle
Finally, could this be it

Or should I give up
Or should I just keep chasin' pavements
Even if it leads nowhere
Or would it be a waste
Even if I knew my place
Should I leave it there

Should I give up
Or should I just keep chasin' pavements
Even if it leads nowhere
Or would it be a waste
Even if I knew my place should I leave it there
Should I give up
Or should I just keep on chasin' pavements
Should I just keep on chasin' pavements