*Nobody's Perfect

When I'm nervous I have this thing, yea, I talk too much
Sometimes I just can't shut the hell up
It's like I need to tell someone, anyone who'll listen
And that's where I seem to fuck up

Yea, I forget about the consequences
For a minute there I lose my senses
And in the heat of the moment my mouth starts going
The words start flowing

But I never meant to hurt you
I know it's time that I learned to
Treat the people I love like I wanna be loved
This is a lesson learned

I hate that I let you down
And I feel so bad about it
I guess karma comes back around
'Cause now I'm the one that's hurting, yea

And I hate that I made you think
That the trust we had is broken
Don't tell me you can't forgive me
'Cause nobody's perfect
No, nobody's perfect, no

If I could turn back the hands of time
I swear I never would've crossed that line
I should've kept it between us
But, no, I went and told the whole world how I feel and

So I sit and I realize
With these tears falling from my eyes
I gotta change if I wanna keep you forever
I promise that I'm gonna try

I'm not a saint, no, not at all, but what I did, it wasn't cool
But I swear that I'll never do that again to you...

Hanggang Ngayon, at Hanggang Doon na lamang

Sa paglipas ng mga araw

     Ramdam ko ang iyong bawat galaw
Malayo ka ma’y natatanaw
     Naririnig mo ba ang aking sigaw?

Puso’y naghintay sa pagdating ng panahon

     Isip ko’y naglakbay saan ka man naroroon
Sadya nga bang hanggang ngayon
     Pag-ibig di nawasak ng alon?

Oh, mapaglarong tadhana

     May himig ng pagsinta sa t’wing ika’y nakikita
Tayo nga ba’y para sa isa’t-isa?
     Kung ang laman ng puso’y mayroon nang iba

Mga pangarap ay nagbago

     Ang pag-asa’y napawi at sumuko
Alaala mong pilit itinago
     Ngayo’y nagbabalik at nanunukso

Ano nga ba itong nararamdaman?

     Ikaw at ako’y pasulyap-sulyap na lamang
Ito’y pag-ibig bang dapat pigilan?
     Tanging tadhana lamang ang nakakaalam

Huwag ngayon, oh, huwag mong sabihin

       Na ako ngayo’y iyong iibigin
Kung noon ikaw ay dapat sa akin
     Ngayon sa piling niya ako’y panatag na rin.

                                               - thenameisAmanda

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I think I’ll start to appreciate myself when I cry. I just noticed that even when I’m crying I try to smile. I think I will be crying some more until I’m out of tears. And just maybe I am destined to do this for all my life. It’s not so hard to get used to crying. It’s hard to get used to getting hurt. My eyes are tired now. And my heart too. Today has been stressful. Too much, too painful to handle. I just wish there was someone, some shoulder I can cry on right now.

 

Why do you do this to me? What have I done to deserve this? I just want to be happy. Why does it not come for free? I can’t think about you tonight. If I do, I’ll be reminded of how much I love you. You know I’d cross the ocean for you. And even when it already hurts too much I’m still holding on tight to this love. I didn’t stop hoping for you to be the one. This is where I want to be, but it’s not supposed to be this way.

your bluë eyes.

Your blue eyes,

Like the ocean is stunningly beautiful.
Your blue eyes,
It’s true as the heart inside of you.
Your blue eyes,
Like I’m looking up the sky.

Your blue eyes,
They tell sorrows and dreams.
Your blue eyes,
I am taken I am lost with time.
Your blue eyes,
They paved the way to your heart’s desires.

Your blue eyes,

They’re not the reason why I’m here.
Your blue eyes,
It’s my one reason to smile.
Your blue eyes,
I get shivers down my spine.

Your blue eyes,
They’re not the reason why I love you.
Your blue eyes,
It is the goodness in your heart.
Your blue eyes,
Precious as the touch of your lips in mine.

Relationships

I fully understand why I feel like this. I am a girl. I have strong instincts. I don’t plan to change the world. I’ll let it work on its own. Like I will without anybody telling me what’s right and wrong. It has never worked out the nice way. In the end, we will all go down to this. So let’s try to walk out of dreamland where everything’s super perfect.

I am usually not the rebellious type. I am just an emotional creep trying to be happy and content with what I have in my very simple life. When it comes to relationships, I am selfish. I’m not ashamed to say that. And this I realized when I first sailed on a long distance relationship. I may not be in the right stand always, but I’ll be a hypocrite to say I am okay with something I’m totally not.

It’s pretty hard to work out one when you’re thousand miles away from each other. It’s even harder to pretend I don’t care when deep inside I’m crying my heart out. Sometimes you will think everything’s perfect, everything’s fine. Later you walk your ass off because the differences come showing up one by one. Then you realize there is so much yet to learn. So much yet to give, so much yet to take. How far you can keep it running is a question only you can answer.

It just gives me the twinge that we are two different worlds trying to merge. And I have so much yet to understand in your culture, what’s acceptable, what’s not, what’s good and bad. You have lived mine, but of course you haven’t taken everything. I am just another weak soul fighting for knowledge and wisdom. Another mind wanting to understand. Another heart hoping to feel love’s existence despite the poles apart…

…but there are some things I do not feel comfortable with. Maybe you do too. And how do I overcome them? When I start to feel I don’t belong, how do I stop it? When I start to think I can’t live with it, how do I change it?

You know people would always tell me I’m better off alone. At my age, it’s either I settle down and marry, or I go soul searching around the world. I only have simple wants and simple needs. But I never thought it’s never going to be that easy to have them. People say I should stick with someone of the same race, same belief, same culture. Well we can never tell who’s meant for me or if there’s actually that someone. But you know if I fail to read this challenge I will never be able to move on to the next page.

"How Deep Is Your Love"

I know your eyes in the morning sun
I feel you touch me in the pouring rain
And the moment that you wander far from me
I wanna feel you in my arms again

And you come to me on a summer breeze
Keep me warm in your love and then softly leave
And it's me you need to show
How Deep Is Your Love

How deep is your love, How deep is your love
I really need to learn
'Cause we're living in a world of fools
Breaking us down
When they all should let us be
We belong to you and me

I believe in you
You know the door to my very soul
You're the light in my deepest darkest hour
You're my saviour when I fall
And you may not think
I care for you
When you know down inside
That I really do
And it's me you need to show
How Deep Is Your Love

How deep is your love, How deep is your love
I really need to learn
'Cause we're living in a world of fools
Breaking us down
When they all should let us be
We belong to you and me

And you come to me on a summer breeze
Keep me warm in your love and then softly leave
And it's me you need to show
How Deep Is Your Love

How deep is your love, How deep is your love
I really need to learn
'Cause we're living in a world of fools
Breaking us down
When they all should let us be
We belong to you and me

Kabalintunaan ng Pag-ibig

May mga bagay minsan na inaasahan mo sa isang tao. Yung gusto mo'y sana sumagi sa isip niya. Yung pinapangarap mo na sana sabihin niya. May mga bagay tayo minsang hinihintay na maramdaman ng isang tao. Ngunit ang buhay ay hindi perpekto, kahit na ako, at hindi lahat ng pinapangarap ko ay makukuha ko.

Minsan, nahanap mo na yung taong mahal na mahal ka, pero hindi maiwasang maging masaya pa rin sa pagpapahalaga ng iba. Nakita mo na yung taong mahal mo, ngunit sa maling araw at pagkakataon. May pangyayari sa buhay natin na sadya lamang talagang madaya. At minsan pa, may taong darating sa buhay mo na aakala-in mong siya na nga ay para sa iyo, ngunit dahil sa mapaglarong tadhana ay malalaman mong ikaw ay mas liligaya pa pala sa piling ng iba.

Totoo ngang hindi natin hawak ang bukas. Pwedeng ngayon ay masaya ka, bukas hindi na. May mga bagay na hindi natin maiwasan na mangyayari at mangyayari pa rin. Pwedeng ngayon mahal ka niya, bukas napalitan ka na. Sinong makapagsasabi? Paano mo maipapaliwanag ang kabalintunaan ng pag-ibig?

Samakatuwid, tayo ay sumusulong na lamang sa agos ng buhay. Nakikisama sa takbo ng mga pangyayari at sumusunod sa sigaw ng damdamin. Minsan ay mahirap pakinggan ang tunay na laman ng puso at isipan, ngunit sa di kalaunan ay nahahanap mo rin ang sagot sa lahat ng katanungan. Maaring hindi lahat ng ito ay tama, o nararapat, pero madalas ay iyon ang tingin mong tunay na magbibigay ng kaligayahan sa buhay mo o sa taong mahal mo.

Love

Love, I'm tired. You are the biggest temptation, the biggest attraction, my guiltiest pleasure. I adored you more than anything. I took all things that hurt and swallowed the pain of my own pride because I simply wanted you so bad. Why do you have to punish me like this? Why can't I be with the one I love?

Love, I'm desperate. You seduce my thoughts into your words, you have lured me, hypnotized me. And yet I looked up to you like I had nothing else. Please stop this suffering and save me. How long will I be crying? How far do I go to keep trying?

Love, I'm losing grip. Every step I make forward is taking me two steps back. Where are you now? I need you to feel my heart in deep sadness. Hold me like you are for real. Touch me, hear me, see right through me. Why did I ever fall for you? Why do I have to keep breathing without you?

Love, take me away. You're the only thing that matters now. I give myself to you. If you take me I'll never leave. Don't watch me drown in my own tears, don't watch me fade, give me a reason to stay. Why do I keep hoping? Why do I keep feeling this way?

Love, I am hurting. The pain inside me grows deeper like a cut. You feel so good, you feel so right, but something must be wrong. How can you be so unfair to me? Let me go, set me free. Is it really what it's got to be?

Letter 71

I don’t think I’d ever tell you, but –

        …when we talk, you make me feel good.^^

Like a resting place from a long walk in a desert.

Or a party from a long day’s work.

You make me feel alive like I’ve never been. And most of all?

You make me feel important.^^

I like how you stare at me with those eyes –

        …they tell a lot.

And even if I cared less, the river kept flowing.

Simple, natural and beautiful;

And I like how you can boost my optimism..

Like you knew I needed it,

Like a perfect three-point shot.^^

Don’t treat me this way. Don’t lend me your hand.

Stop telling me I’m pretty. Stop talking.

Don’t take me to places you think I deserve.

Stop caring. Stop looking at me with your open arms.

Just stop what you’re doing and let it be..

The stake’s so high.

Water’s too deep.

When you come to me I feel needed, and

        …when you call on me I feel wanted.^^

You give me thoughts I never thought about.

You give me strength when I’m at fallout.

And you keep rising, now that’s surprising. But most of all?

You kept me a big part of your life.^^

Thanks for making me appreciate change…

Thanks for giving me a life’s lesson…

Thanks for making me see, that loving ain’t easy.

Now my heart beats to the right side of the ring –

        …it comes in free-flowing with fragrant bubbles of hope;

Like the tips of my toes anticipating the waves

on that dreamland we walked together.

Three more words and I’ll fall again,

Two more steps and I’m out the door.

Don’t tell me this, don’t say it at all.

Don’t give me this, I won’t take it anymore.

Say nothing –

…just let your silence float over my bewildered world.

Your presence lingers enough and I’m cool.^^

Your sweet soul –

…like a special sound in my ears,

Soothing from pain.

Staining.

*Make You Feel My Love

When the rain is blowing in your face,
And the whole world is on your case,
I could offer you a warm embrace
To make you feel my love.

When the evening shadows and the stars appear,
And there is no one there to dry your tears,
I could hold you for a million years
To make you feel my love.

I know you haven't made your mind up yet,
But I would never do you wrong.
I've known it from the moment that we met,
No doubt in my mind where you belong.

I'd go hungry, I'd go black and blue,
I'd go crawling down the avenue.
No, there's nothing that I wouldn't do
To make you feel my love.

The storms are raging on the rolling sea
And on the highway of regret.
Though winds of change are blowing wild and free,
You ain't seen nothing like me yet.

I could make you happy, make your dreams come true.
Nothing that I wouldn't do.
Go to the ends of the Earth for you,
To make you feel my love

*Chasing Pavements

I've made up my mind,
Don't need to think it over
If I'm wrong, I am right
Don't need to look no further,
This ain't lust
I know this is love
But, if I tell the world
I'll never say enough
'cause it was not said to you
And that's exactly what I need to do
If I end up with you

Should I give up,
Or should I just keep chasin' pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere
Or would it be a waste
Even if I knew my place
Should I leave it there
Should I give up,
Or should I just keep chasin' pavements
Even if it leads nowhere

I build myself up
And fly around in circles
Waitin' as my heart drops
And my back begins to tingle
Finally, could this be it

Or should I give up
Or should I just keep chasin' pavements
Even if it leads nowhere
Or would it be a waste
Even if I knew my place
Should I leave it there

Should I give up
Or should I just keep chasin' pavements
Even if it leads nowhere
Or would it be a waste
Even if I knew my place should I leave it there
Should I give up
Or should I just keep on chasin' pavements
Should I just keep on chasin' pavements

*I Will Always Love You

If I should stay,
I would only be in your way.
So I'll go, but I know
I'll think of you every step of the way.
And I will always love you.
I will always love you.

You, my darling you. Hmm.

Bittersweet memories
that is all I'm taking with me.
So, goodbye. Please, don't cry.
We both know I'm not what you, you need.
And I will always love you.
I will always love you.

I hope life treats you kind
And I hope you have all you've dreamed of.
And I wish to you, joy and happiness.
But above all this, I wish you love.

And I will always love you.
I will always love you.
I will always love you.
I will always love you.
I will always love you.
I, I will always love you.

Darling, I love you.
I will always
I will always
Love you.

*Without You - David Guetta feat. Usher

I can't win, I can't reign
I will never win this game
Without you, without you
I am lost, I am vain,
I will never be the same
Without you, without you

I won't run, I won't fly
I will never make it by
Without you, without you
I can't rest, I can't fight
All I need is you and I,
Without you, without you

Oh oh oh!
You! You! You!
Without
You! You! You!
Without you

I can't erase, so I'll take blame
But I can't accept that we're estranged
Without you, without you
I can't quit now, this can't be right
I can't take one more sleepless night
Without you, without you

I won't soar, I won't climb
If you're not here, I'm paralyzed
Without you, without you
I can't look, I'm so blind
I lost my heart, I lost my mind
Without you, without you

Oh oh oh!
You! You! You!
Without
You! You! You!
Without you

I am lost, I am vain,
I will never be the same
Without you, without you
Without you

Jason Mraz - I Won't Give Up (Official Lyric Video)

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